As most of you know, I love to write. Hence the reason this blog exists. I’ve always been a pretty decent writer, but over the past year I have come to truly appreciate it and work hard at honing my skills. Over time this love for writing has grown into a passion and dream of mine. I want to make an impact with the power that words hold. That is a new aspiration of mine. However, I believe I have been proclaiming this dream the wrong way over the past few months.
A few weeks ago, it was brought to my attention by my lovely mother that I have been downplaying myself. Not intentionally but subconsciously. A large majority of my teen years have been composed of self-doubt and a lack of confidence in my God-given abilities. It is a struggle that I have worked hard to conquer in the past year; and I’m excited to say that I am confident in who I am today. However, there are still those little doubts in the back of my mind that have yet to be dug out and dealt with. Every once in awhile they are revealed unknowingly through things that I may say or do. Such as this recent matter of the heart that I have discovered with the help of those around me.
It may seem like a simple matter to you, but it’s often those simple alterations in someone’s life that make the biggest difference.
In recent months, when I have been asked about my future plans, I have been stating that I ‘dream of becoming a writer’ or that ‘I am aspiring to be a writer.’ After seeing this a few times, my mom called me out;
“Do you like to write? What are you doing on your blog? I don’t know about you, but I would call it writing. Your the one who formed those words, and you know what kind of person that is? A writer.”
In stating that I dreamed of becoming a writer in the future, I was also stating that I wasn’t one in the present moment. I didn’t have enough faith in my abilities to state the truth. It was another one of those not-so-small, hidden self-doubts making itself known through the thoughts of my mother.
I don’t dream of becoming a writer because I already am.
Are you downplaying yourself? Are you dreaming of becoming something/someone that God has already created in you? Don’t let those self-doubts alter your image of the capable person God has made you to be. Your loving Father has filled you with so much potential to fulfill your dreams in the future and the present.
“Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see.”
~ Hebrews 11:1 ~